Hi Good morning friends, hope all is well with you all today.
To be honest, for me, I was entertaining the idea of not writing a TGI Saturdays post this morning. You see TGI Saturdays was designed with the idea of being an upbeat, positive, celebratory post. Whereas, I feel sad today.
The thing is with me, is when I feel that way I have trouble being motivated to do things. Especially writing an upbeat post. When I feel this way I even have trouble praying. The words just don’t come out. That’s when I need someone to pray for me most of all.
Why I feel sad? For one thing, I have been feeling a little sad that TGI Saturdays guest (readers/linkers) have been very low lately and typical insecure me have been wondering, if people have stopped coming because of what I write. To me, my write-ups are okay. They are positive and honest, they represent me in the moment. And my hope is for people to like reading what I have to say. To want to respond with a comment. I have high hopes for AskLatisha one day, but for now in this really busy season, a TGI Saturdays post is all I could muster.
Now the thought of closing shop has entered my mind. I wonder if it is worth it. I tell myself, that Saturday blog hops are unpredictable, because people often have alot going on on Saturdays. So weekly guest fluctuation in numbers might not necessarily have to do with me per se. I also say to myself at least this is a way to practice and hone my writing skills, even if my audience is very small at the moment. At least I’m growing in this area, until I can do more. My husband doesn’t think it is worth it. Not having his support makes me feel even sadder.
That’s one of the reasons I’m sad today. The other is even more of an internal sadness. My life around me is very blessed right now. Except for this one big financial challenge on our plates at the moment. However, seeing God’s provision manifest itself through so many people and in so many ways this last week. There shouldn’t be a reason for this sadness.
So why am I so sad. I am very sad about my weight. I hate my body right now. I have never seen myself look this way. I hate looking at myself in mirrors and I hate having my picture taken. Don’t get me wrong, this is not a superficial thing. It isn’t because I overeat, or eat unhealthy. Our family actually eats very healthy. Very little starch, lots of fruits and vegetables everyday. I just need to establish a consistent exercise routine and better sleeping habits.
My body changed, after giving birth to 6 kids. With each new child, the more it changed.
I just look and feel unhealthy. My body is out of shape and I want to be healthier and stronger. But it feels like a mountain to climb. So much is asked of me daily already. I don’t know how much more I can give.
I want when people see me they see a “strong soldier” in God’s Army. A healthy mom and wife. I want to be an ambassador for God, and for people to see His goodness through me. They can’t see that, if I look so unhealthy. I need to do better. The big picture is overwhelming and one step at a time feels too slow, and I lose momentum. I truly need God’s help on this one.
Yesterday, I had to make a decision not to go somewhere fun (Homeschool Coop Outing) for various unfun grown-up reasons. That made me feel even sadder.
So that’s what’s up. The good and the not so good.
Anyway, that’s all for now. Maybe, I’ll see you next week.
Peace, Love and Blessings to you.
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LaTisha I think the problem is I can never get the link-up to open. I’ve been trying for months since you changed your site. I try each Saturday but I click on the link and it just blinks. I can only imagine why you are sad. We’re here. We just can’t link.
Hope you are feeling better soon. You must wake up every morning and state or better yet write one positive thing and by the end of the week you can count more blessings. They can be little things like, I have my family by my side or I’m glad it rained so I don’t have to water my grass. My air or heat works so my family is comfortable. Or, for me right now…its cooler outside so my electric bill will be lower next month because I haven’t had to run the air as much. Give striving and be blessed.
Thankfully, we have the Holy Spirit to intercede for us on those days that we just don’t know what to pray. I have those days, too. And I hear you about your post-baby body. After 11 kids, I am not even close to the size 0 I once was! Our kids are worth it, though, don’t you think? I hope you have a wonderful week. I’ll pray for you. :)
I understand those times of *sad*, Latisha. I’m in a season of sad myself right now. Along with some life circumstances that have me feeling discouraged, I have also noticed a change in the blogging world. Traffic and comments are down on my site, too. I have also questioned whether or not it is time to just hang it up. I am praying that if the Lord wants me to stay in Blog Land, that He’ll make it clear so that I don’t stop blogging just because I’m down.
I think it’s just part of life’s rhythm, the ups and downs. And even in times of great blessing, I myself can still feel sad. I know the Lord wants me to feel joy, so on top of everything else, I sometimes feel like a poor representative of Him when I’m sad. However, these are the times when I learn that joy is so much more than happiness – and that no matter what, I have a great future ahead of me.
Praying for you and your family. God is there, even in times of sad – maybe especially then, for He is close to the brokenhearted.
GOD BLESS.
I feel bad for you reading your “sad” post. I myself have had many sad days and was in a deep depression that lasted a few years. Hopefully your is caused more by the changing weather (lack of sunshine and vitamin D). My 9 year old was so sad and lonely today too. I’ve never see her so unhappy. Then her sister came home from play practice and she perked right up. Hopefully you can find a routine that works for you to improve your happiness. Maybe you need some mommy alone time, maybe you need some social time? Stay strong! You will make it through.
Thanks for sharing your struggles, Latisha. I enjoy coming to read what is on your mind each week. I am not good at sharing myself in that way.
Hi Latisha – sorry you are feeling sad but it’s important to yourself and everyone around you (virtually too!) to be real! I hope being honest helps you out and I’m certainly one who appreciates what you share every week. Wishing you the best!
Latisha – I am sorry to hear you are sad – I have found that my desire to write or link-up has been gone since August when I took a blogging break.. I have noticed that many people I usually link up with have taken blogging summer g breaks and so far haven’t re-emerged …. I wouldn’t be so concerned or assumed that it is you or what you write as much as it is that many are feeling the lack of motivation to write – I pray you have been filled with joy and the sadness has gone by now.
I’ve seen posts and emails from people I follow who mention the impact of the elections. A lot of people have turned off their computers. You may see a change back to normal in mid November.