Hey everyone, hope all is well. I’m good for the most part. I’m truly blessed, there is no denying that. I have alot to be thankful for.
Today, I have kind of a writer’s block, where I have a bunch of thoughts in my head but I can’t pull them together to write anything substantial. So I’ll just write some of what I’m thinking and see what it turns into.
That’s the thing about commitments, you have to stick it out through all your moods and moments. I’m not just talking about TGI Saturdays either. This season of life we have made alot of commitments for the benefit of our kids, Homeschool Coop, 4H club (every other Tuesday and Thursday), Girl Scouts (Every other Wednesday), Church, Homeschooling. I find myself stretched more than ever before. I have help in this season, mind you. God sent me help when I needed it. I’m not complaining either.
It is just that recently something came up in my spirit and don’t know where it came from, why its there or what its call. There is no particular label for it, its not fear, or worry, or sadness, but I feel my mojo (passion, motivation, confidence) dwindling. Maybe, it is just weariness. I haven’t done anything just for me and my well being in a long time. I would love a “me” day. Not out of selfishness, but for my own peace of mind and well being.
There are so many things I use to love to do, puzzles, poetry, painting, postcrossing and more, that I have been wanting to do but I haven’t been able to, because there is no time and energy left for those things at the end of the day. Not to mention, I could also use a pedicure.
I’m not complaining, truly I’m not. I know there is a time and season for everything under the sun. One day my kids will need me less, and I’ll have more time for me. This season I’ll have to stick with just stealing moments when I can. And like I have been saying for a while, take it one step at a time.
The thing about commitments is, whoever is going on this journey with me, will see all the different pieces of me. My ups, downs and inbetweens. I want be as real as I can be.
Enough about that though. I watched a past Hallmark Christmas movie last night, that is not your typical Hallmark movie formula, but is a very good movie about faith and hope, and hanging on to them when it is hardest to do. God works in the impossible. This movie is called “The Christmas Heart.” I highly recommend you watch it, if you haven’t already. It is a beautiful Christmas movie, but be prepared for the waterworks, if you are a cry baby like me.
I pray you have a blessed thanksgiving (those in the USA) and that we ALL remember what we have to be thankful for. The list is endless.
Peace, Love and Blessings to you.